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Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Wishlist

CD's
Jody Whitesides - Practical Insanity
Incubus - Light Grenades
Senses Fail - Let It Unfold
Senses Fail - Still Searching
Vanilla Sky - Waiting for Something
Social Code - A Year at the Movies
Straylight Run - The Needs The Space
This Providence - Fueled By Ramen
Quietdrive - When All That's Left is You
Endeavor - Cartography
Fort Minor - The Rising Tied
The Ordinary Boys - We Am...
Missy Elliot - The Cookbook
R. Kelly - The Chocolate Factory
Punk Goes Acoustic
Punk Goes Pop
Punk Goes Metal
Utada Hikaru - Ultra Blue
Utada Hikaru - Be My Last
Utada Hikaru - Distance
Utada Hikaru - First Love
(Sugarcult - Palm Trees and Power Lines
Sugarcult - Back to the Disaster
Sugarcult - Start Static)
Daphne Loves Derby - Chasing Down the Pattern Department
Daphne Loves Derby - On The Strength of All Convinced
Michelle Branch - Broken Bracelet
Michelle Branch - The Spirit Room
Michelle Branch - Hotel Paper
(Yellowcard - This One's For the Kids
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Yellowcard - Lights and Sounds)
The All-American Rejects - The All-American Rejects
The All-American Rejects - Same Girl, New Songs
The All-American Rejects - Move Along
Augustana - All the Stars and Boulevards
Augustana - You'll Disappear
Augustana - Midwest Skies and Sleepless Mondays
Augustana - Mayfield
Jack Johnson - In Between Dreams
Jack Johnson - On and On
Jack Johnson - Thicker Than Water
Jack Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing
Something Corporate - North
Something Corporate - Leaving Through the Window
Something Corporate - Ready...Break
Something Corporate - Audioboxer
Something Corporate - Down
Rufio - Perhaps...I Suppose
Rufio - The Comfort of Home
Evanescence - Fallen
Evanescence - Origin
Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory
Linkin Park & Jay-Z - Collision Course
Thursday - Waiting
Thursday - Full Collapse
Thursday - Five Stories Falling
Thursday - War All The Time
Thursday - A City By The Light Divided
Death Cab for Cutie - Transatlanticism
Mae - Destination: Anywhere
Hellogoodbye - Zombies! Aliens! Vampires! Dinosaurs!
Motion City Soundtrack - Commit This to Memory
Stone Sour - Come What(ever) May
Stone Sour - Stone Sour
Relient K - Mmhmm
The Used - In Love and Death
Chicago Soundtrack
Hoodwinked Soundtrack
Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory Soundtrack (Old One)
Corpse Bride Soundtrack
Kanye West - The College Dropout
Kanye West - Late Registration
OK Go - OK Go
Outkast - Speakerbox/The Love Below
Do As Infinity
Porno Graffiti
Asian Kung-Fu Generation
Monpachi
tokyo rose
Destiny's Child
Ashanti
Aaliyah
Ray Charles
Luther Vandross
The Used
David Guetta
Anime Soundtracks
Game Soundtracks

DVD's
Shin-Chan Series
Elfen Lied Series
Ally McBeal Series
Psyche Series
Courage the Cowardly Dog
The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy
Rocko's Modern Life
Dead Like Me Series
Seasons of That 70's Show
Season 5+ of House
Seasons of Family Guy
Seasons of The X-Files
Seasons of Grey's Anatomy
Seasons of South Park
Seasons of Heroes
Seasons of Alias
Seasons of Beavus and Butthead
Seasons of Arrested Development

Movies
My Neighbor Totoro
Graveyard of the Fireflies
Howl's Moving Castle
Castle in the Sky
Brokeback Mountain
The Fast and the Furious
2 Fast 2 Furious
The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift
X-Men
X-Men II: Unlimited
X-Men III: The Last Stand
Memoirs of a Geisha
Boondock Saints
Boondock Saints II
Patch Adams
Rain Men
The Lake House
The Wickerman
Running with Scissors
True Romance
Happy Feet
The Departed
The Holiday

Tim Burton directed films
Johnny Depp
Robin Williams -- not RV
Julia Roberts
Amanda Bynes
Japanese related movies, but not anime

Games
Ghost Recon
Tetris
Kirby games
Mario games
Final Fantasy games
Strategy games
Shooting games

Clothes
Torso - Medium
Bottoms - 2
Johnny the Homocidal Maniac
Making Fiends
Explosm
VGCats
Questionable Content
Sinfest
Tights (any color but black)
Colorful knee high socks
Black knee high socks
Umbrella hat
Hats
Hoodies
Shirts
Pants
Shorts
Skirts
Dresses
Clothes in general
Running/Basketball/Athletic Shoes
Penguins
Ducks
Moogle
Sunglasses
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http://store.embraceapparel.com/

Books
Any books are fine
Adventurous, mystery, suspense like
life threatening
I don't read much, but I want:
Saikano volume 6
Elfen Lied series
+Anima series
PostSecret (second and third books)
Jrock, Ink. by Josephine Yun
Out by Natsuo Kirino
Dark Rivers of the Heart by Dean Koontz
Micrographica by Renee French
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden
Circle of Friends by Maeve Binchy
Dry: A Memoir by Augusten Burroughs
The Wickerman by Robin Hardy
Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris
Xenocide by Orson Scott Card
Skinny Dip by Carl Hiaasen
The Informant by Mark Whitacre
Dean Koontz
Steven King
Orson Scott Card

Comics
Just a category to let you guys know what I like
If it says PRINT AVAILABLE. Click it.
Most of these are old, so they may not appear.
DeviantArt
Johnny the Homocidal Maniac
Happy Tree Friends
Muffin Films
Making Fiends
http://www.threadless.com/
http://store.embraceapparel.com/
Explosm
VGCats
Questionable Content
Sinfest
The Seraph Inn - Inverloch
bleedman
bluboycomics
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d
e
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g
h
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k
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m
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p
q
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s
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v
x
mentaldemental
broken-emotion
pyromaniac
x-horizon
BloodyLuna
Rimfrost
azuzephre
petra-
telekinetick
odessa11
deadness
thegirlinthebigbox
nyctopterus
tatsell
luminatii
kaze-hime
heise
drahomira
delacorr
garrit
jimonzani
podobycko
violator3
patrickauletto
andoledius
Divineerror
i-am-pi
smashmethod
aquapell

Other Junk
PSP
8 x 10 Picture Frame (longer horizontally)
Macintosh Laptop
Old fashioned microphone
Penguins
Ducks
Moogle
Stripes
Checkers
Polka dots
Mini oven (i.e. easybake)
Food
Giftcard
Money
Goggles/Glasses from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (the newer one with Johnny Depp)
Here is the deal:
If you get me something, I will return the favor by giving you something of equal value. Or at least try my best.

Anything is fine
It is the thought that count

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Monday, December 06, 2010

Why have you been so angry and bitter?

I'm tired of it, okay. I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of people worrying about me. I'm tired of relying on people. I'm tired of all this paranoia.

I'm tired of myself.


I don't want to think about this.

I really need to put this somewhere or else I will go insane.

My mom just came into my room without my permission telling me about how much she worries about me and all this other crap.

She said other important crap, but I am not really taking it in too much for the moment.

She told me about how every time she is home, I am asleep. I told her what the fuck can I do about that when I have night classes this semester, and yeah, I have no class today. I guess she isn't aware that I woke up at six in the morning and went back to sleep at eleven. I was still laying in bed because it was warm.. If she doesn't believe that then whatever. I should have never given my dad my schedule by the receipt..shit..that shows my classes, too. She asked me about my classes, too. Why I'm taking this and that.

At some point, she told me that because I am nineteen I can't do anything I want just yet. I wanted to be a smartass and tell her that I have been doing that since .. hm .. middle school? If I can't do anything I want, then why aren't either of you fucking stopping me? Because neither of you are stopping me, I am pretty much doing anything I want. I have to learn to set my own limits. Because neither of you stop me, I go out every opportunity that is given to me even if it's one too many times because I dislike missing opportunities to hang out.

She told me how she can't leave him because she's too weak. In my head: yeah, I know that. I know my mom's weak. What am I supposed to do about that? "I'll be strong for you." Well that's a load of bullshit even if I meant it. You can't be strong for someone. You can only provide the motivation to be strong. I guess I'm not enough motivation for my mom to be strong. Stop making up excuses for yourself. I even offered to my mom for me to quit school so it could be easier for her to leave him, then I could just focus on finding a job more. My mom is older than me, and she's weak. I'm stronger than her on my own. I'm the one that has to deal with the disorder, not fucking you. Yeah, you're the one that has to deal with worrying about me, okay? Get the fuck over it. Wait. You're weak. What the fuck do you want me to do about it?! Give you a fucking mansion and cute things for distraction? I don't give a shit if everyone worries about me. I wish everyone fucking didn't. That's what pisses me off: people worrying about me. Yeah, I think that's horrible of me..but I'm just tired of it. Because it pisses me off or upsets me or bothers me.
I will admit that it is nice when people worry here and there, especially when it's a stranger or a new friend. Because it's not full of bullshit.

She also mentioned how I seem to be full of anger nowadays. Well. Maybe? But that's for me to worry about.

I really do not like talking to my parents/relatives at all. I think my family is full of bullshit. They never ask me about personal things in my life, so why be here for me now? You have no excuses. You're my fucking parents. I am indebted to you for a fucking lifetime for giving me life and letting me keep it, but you surely do not have my fucking respect. Neither of you were..ready? or even meant to be fucking parents. Why.
Thanks for the torture of never having a real legit family. Thanks for the torture that I have to go through with myself. Thanks for helping me become independent.

Oh yeah, you told me that it's important for a woman to be independent. No shit. I have been independent for a very long time. As independent as I can fucking get. I may not have a job, and now that pisses me off since you told me you can't pay for something college related..I'll ask another day when you're not fucking crying or drunk.

I may get over this in the future, but I can't tell right now, so only time will tell.

You also asked me if I want to be alone.
That's a difficult question for me to answer right now.
I do want to be alone. But I can't be alone where I physically am right now.
It'd be easier to be alone if I went away. So, in a slight way, yes, I want to be alone. I want people to stop worrying about me.


Monday, July 26, 2010

   


What do you think of me now?
do you even think of me now?


Saturday, July 24, 2010

Currently: We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things
- I'm Yours

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Extraversion

Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.

Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

EXTRAVERSION...............65 *****************************************************************

..Friendliness.............63 ***************************************************************

..Gregariousness...........39 ***************************************

..Assertiveness............28 ****************************

..Activity Level...........71 ***********************************************************************

..Excitement-Seeking.......97 *************************************************************************************************

..Cheerfulness.............60 ************************************************************

Your score on Extraversion is average, indicating you are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone.

Extraversion Facets

  • Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is average.
  • Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is average.
  • Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is low.
  • Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is high.
  • Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking. Your level of excitement-seeking is high.
  • Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is average.

Agreeableness

Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others'. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.

Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others' well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others' motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.

Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

AGREEABLENESS..............49 *************************************************

..Trust....................36 ************************************

..Morality.................25 *************************

..Altruism.................78 ******************************************************************************

..Cooperation..............70 **********************************************************************

..Modesty..................55 *******************************************************

..Sympathy.................27 ***************************

Your level of Agreeableness is average, indicating some concern with others' Needs, but, generally, unwillingness to sacrifice yourself for others.

Agreeableness Facets

  • Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of trust is average.
  • Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank, and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth. Your level of morality is low.
  • Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level of altruism is high.
  • Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your level of compliance is high.
  • Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant by other people. Your level of modesty is average.
  • Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering. They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason. They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your level of tender-mindedness is low.

Conscientiousness

Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.

Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways. Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive socializing that leads to being fired from one's job, hurling an insult that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one's health.

Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a person's effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore small, scattered, and inconsistent.

A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.

The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS..........77 *****************************************************************************

..Self-Efficacy............80 ********************************************************************************

..Orderliness..............83 ***********************************************************************************

..Dutifulness..............68 ********************************************************************

..Achievement-Striving.....33 *********************************

..Self-Discipline..........97 *************************************************************************************************

..Cautiousness.............39 ***************************************

Your score on Conscientiousness is high. This means you set clear goals and pursue them with determination. People regard you as reliable and hard-working.

Conscientiousness Facets

  • Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one's ability to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is high.
  • Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your level of orderliness is high.
  • Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person's sense of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is high.
  • Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is average.
  • Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is high.
  • Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level of cautiousness is average.

Neuroticism

Freud originally used the term neurosis to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering, and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life. He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic's ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.

At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

NEUROTICISM................18 ******************

..Anxiety..................15 ***************

..Anger....................9 *********

..Depression...............46 **********************************************

..Self-Consciousness.......17 *****************

..Immoderation.............45 *********************************************

..Vulnerability............33 *********************************

Your score on Neuroticism is low, indicating that you are exceptionally calm, composed and unflappable. You do not react with intense emotions, even to situations that most people would describe as stressful.

Neuroticism Facets

  • Anxiety. The "fight-or-flight" system of the brain of anxious individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is low.
  • Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated. This scale measures the tendency to feel angry; whether or not the person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual's level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily. Your level of anger is low.
  • Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected, and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings. Your level of depression is average.
  • Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is low.
  • Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and urges that they have have difficulty resisting. They tend to be oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long- term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge. Your level of immoderation is average.
  • Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed. Your level of vulnerability is average.

Openness to Experience

Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience; consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.

Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on the individual's specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the many visual or performing arts. People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.

Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and a number of service occupations.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE.....86 **************************************************************************************

..Imagination..............52 ****************************************************

..Artistic Interests.......71 ***********************************************************************

..Emotionality.............47 ***********************************************

..Adventurousness..........94 **********************************************************************************************

..Intellect................92 ********************************************************************************************

..Liberalism...............82 **********************************************************************************

Your score on Openness to Experience is high, indicating you enjoy novelty, variety, and change. You are curious, imaginative, and creative.

Openness Facets

  • Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination is average.
  • Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are interest in, and appreciation of natural and artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in the arts. Your level of artistic interests is high.
  • Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your level of emotionality is average.
  • Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of adventurousness is high.
  • Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence. Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although high scorers on Intellect score slightly higher than low-Intellect individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect is high.
  • Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity, chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of liberalism is high.



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